Breakaway

I realize that I was told that I have to take a quiz, but I just posted something like that, and so will wait until I have nothing else to post about.

I want to tell you how SICK I am of being "conservative, but nice." I LOATHE being predictable, and not spontaneous. I ABHOR the fact that I think everything through, and think about the consequences an action might take. I DETEST that I never take risks, and always, ALWAYS do what is practical.

This year that changes! I am going to take risks. I am stepping out of my comfort zone, and I am actually going to DO something with my life.
I am twenty-five years old, I am single, and I am educated!!!!!
There are a million things I could do, but I don't because .... I don't know why really... I just don't do them.

Now is a perfect time for me to be living wherever I want to live, doing whatever I want (the Lord wants) me to do. There is NOTHING holding me to Circleville, Ohio....NOTHING!!!!!! My life is the same now, as it was when I moved here. I have the same friends, the same circle of places to go, and a job that is taking me nowhere.

So, why am I still here. Why am I not actively promoting myself to colleges, universities, and churches where I KNOW I am the PERFECT candidate for whatever position they have. Why have I been complacent for so long? Why have I been settling for not meeting new people, working at a job that, while I am good at it, is not something I have been called to do, and living in Ohio. I am not an Ohioan. Don't know exactly what I am or where I'm supposed to be, but small-town living is not for me for the rest of my life.

This may sound crazy, and a bit egotistical...but I KNOW I was made for great things. I know there is something HUGE that God has planned for me, I just haven't figured out what exactly that is.

I have a theme song. I started crying the minute I heard this song, because it fits me. It describes what I'm doing. Some of you may think it silly because the artist is Kelly Clarkson, but this song is really great. It's called Breakaway....and I would like to share some of the words with you.

Grew up in a small town. And when the rain would fall down,
I'd just stare out my window. Dreamin' of what could be,
And if I'd end up happy. I would pray.
Trying hard to reach out. But, when I tried to speak out,
Felt like no one could hear me. Wanted to belong here,
But something felt so wrong here. So I prayed I could break away.

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky
And I'll make a wish, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun
But, I won't forget all the ones that I love
I'll take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze. Sleep under a palm tree.
Feel the rush of the ocean. Get on board a fast train
Travel on a jetplane, far away And break away.
Buildings with a hundred floors Swinging round revolving doors
Maybe I don't know where they'll take me
But, gotta keep moving on, moving on Fly away, break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly
Though it's not easy to tell you goodbye,
Gotta Take a risk, take a chance, make a change
And break away
Out of the darkness and into the sun But, I won't forget of the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance, make a change And break away
*****
It's a great song.

And so, though I am kind of scared to say this, because I commit myself to it, I am moving to California.
I am applying for various jobs I have found, asking various Christian colleges if they have positions open, and writing to churches to see if they have any pastorates available.
I hope to be moving no early than late March and no later than the beginning of June.

So that's the deal. Pray for me please. Tell me you love me often...I seem to need that quite a bit lately.